It is amazing how easily you shattered me
Yet how difficult putting myself back together has been
Some pieces don’t fit any more
Others feel like they are in the wrong place
There are no instructions
No guidelines
Just a thousands of jagged pieces of who I was
Each one cutting me as I grasp them tightly
They illicit no blood
Just tears
So many tears
My face hollow
My eyes red
Enduring what seems like an endless stream
You and me made these pieces over decades
I gave you the biggest pieces of me
You gave me back the smallest of you
I tried to make all the small pieces replace the large
Struggled to hold them all together
Each piece replaced a piece of me gone
Until the whole looked nothing like what it was
And with the slightest admission from you
I was scattered across the floor
So now, broken, I’m so unsure
What should my reflection even look like?
Where do the pieces go now?
Do I bother using the tiny shattered pieces you gave me?
Or try to piece back together the bigger ones I gave you?
In the end I cannot put these pieces back the same
So I will gather my broken remains
Then I’ll make something new
It’ll be imperfect
Crisscrossed by the telltale signs of a break
Scarred forever by the way you dropped me
But it will be me
Jumbled together as best I can
Never to give my pieces away again
Each piece coated by an armor of caution. Pain.
Lessons learned
You will not shatter me again
Nobody will